well hello there! it's been a real long time. lets see..instead of catching you all up with the last year or two i will just tell you all where i am today. i live in murrieta with my 3 kids in a cute little apt. my husband lives down the street in a big house and a pool. no hating at all, we are married couple living apart but very much a team in raising our 3 kids! We are a family! lots of growing and today my faith and trust in GOD is most important! God has a plan for me and this family of mine! My trust and HOPE is in him. I attend church at Centerpoint. I love it very much! I pray a lot, I pray about everything. I love music. I listen to it a lot. I'm falling in love with the word of God! So amazing to me to read about all the Lord's promises! It brings me to tears how much he loves us! I want to be like him, pour out love. My life has changed and I give God all the Glory! He rescued me from ME and the darkness I was in! I'm RANDOM! and it shows. I work part time and I love it. I'm also a photographer. I love weddings, those are my favorite! I love LOVE! I'm starting this blog again its been in my heart for some time now. I want to bring encouragement and just be love! LOVE NEVER FAILS!!! xo cynthia

{52 weeks of black & white}

lately i have been feeling a bit odd. i say odd because it is.. it's not me. so i did a lot of thinking and i found that i needed to pick up my camera not only for work but for me. to document my life for my kids, my kids kids and well for whom ever wants to know who i am.
theres a lot of personal projects out there. like a picture a day for a year.. i can't do it. I can't do just one picture a day. so instead i am doing my own thing. there's rules..i made them up and i like them. i will tell you a few.
images can not be posed. i won't ask my subjects to look at me, stand there..do this do that. it's whatever i get the second i hold down my shutter...ok that is one. the other is they will all be black and white. i will do this for a year. this is a weekly project. i don't know how many images a week i will post. it can be 2 or 22..there is no limit-my whole deal is document my life and the life around me weekly. my life is crazy. some days i will take about 500 plus frames and some days 2..so with all said here is to 52 weeks of my life.
I still haven't picked the day i will post...sunday..monday or tuesday.. I will figure that out soon.

with love,
cynthia

Some of things that remind me of you Sally from the valley!

Dave Gahan- enough said!
hot mustard and honey for our fries!

I'm Jayna and you are Zan, okay? Okay!!!

Remember I would say "salad door" instead of 'cellar door"

LMAO!!!!

Sally there is so much more that reminds me of you but I will be here all day! I wish I had mom's photo albums here with me, I would scan a few of the many pictures of us as kids!
Sally you are my best friend, you have always been there since the start of my life. I would not know what to do with out you. Since we were kids- waking each other up to share our hilarious dreams! Fighting like cats and dogs! Keeping each other company those Friday nights welcoming the Sabbath...(WE WERE BORED OUT OF OUR MINDS!!!!)
Crazy times!!
I love you so much and thank you for loving me and believing in me!
Happy birthday Sister, I love you and may God Bless you today and always!!!


Gloria Cynthia aka GLOWORM!

WTP!!!!!

For my sister Sally!

We miss you everyday, we miss you in every way

It's been 8 months and 13 days since we lost Sylvia. My girls and I talk a lot about her, especially CynthiaD and I. She loves talking about her tia Sylvia and her advice about learning to walk in heels now, so when she is older she will be able to wear them all day long with no problem! My daughter cracks me up!
Last week Sunday Lil Cyn and I we're hanging out watching some ghost stories on TV..I know I'm a sucker for ghost stories. After watching this paticular episode about a famous actor having an "out of body death experience" Cyn looked at me with watery eyes and a little smile. She said, "mom, I think Tia Sylvia had one of those out of body experience and picked to go to heaven to be with her Isai!" I felt the tears roll down, I hugged her and said, "Yes, yes of course!

Although our beliefs are different, I had to share this with you all. The comfort it gave me to think, Yes, my sister is resting now and waiting for our LORD to take her home where she will see her Isai. I can't wait to go!

Family, I know it's hard cause we are hurting, but we're stronger people in the growing and the knowing that heaven will be our home one day! I hope you find the same comforter I found in Lil Cyn's words, "she picked to go to heaven to be with her Isai!"

Love you all,

Cynthia



We miss you everyday
Miss you in every way
But we know there's a day
When we will hold you,
And you'll kiss our tears away
When we're home to stay
We can't wait for the day

Her gift to me

Back in September my sister Sylvia and Jesse took a trip. I remember calling her that weekend and she answered. I don't remember why I called, but we talked for a bit and then she said with a bit of a laugh that she and Jesse were on their second honeymoon. I laughed, she laughed. They were on a weekend trip, just them two! I remember telling her, "Oh ok, I will let you get back to your honeymoon silly!" I teased her, and said something like "check you out..taking off and not telling me!"
We said our "good-byes", our "I love yous" and we hung up.
I remember sitting there and thinking to myself how awesome is that! Traveling with your love. I felt so much happiness inside for Sylvia and Jesse.

Fast forward to December 6th, her birthday. Jesse handed me and Sali these bags. A gift she intended to give to us but we never saw her after that trip. Inside these bags where these beautiful ceramic leaves with this white bird.
That same day I picked out a few things I wanted to keep that belonged to her. One of those things were her reading glasses.
When I look at them, I see her sense of style, at times so classy and at times funky =)
Sylvia,
It's you on my mind.
I know I can't see you but I know you are here with me.

A day in the life of my new app {shake it photo}

I woke Sunday morning and went straight to my iphone. I checked my twitter, email and of course FB. All while still in bed. I know I am horrible! {but that is another story for another post}
Anyway I read @wrecklessgirl's post-
inspiring me this afternoon: http://blog.photobolic.com/?p=548 & http://aliciaprice.com/blog/2010/01/blah-blah-blah-uh-huh
I checked it out. With in minutes I downloaded this awesome app and starting shaking away!
If you have an iphone I suggest you get this awesome fun app!
It will be the best 99cents ever spent!

Happy Monday Y'all!

xoxo

ps.
the app is
ShakeItPhoto app
get it!!!
pss
a big thank you to my family! you all are silly. love ya!